Why am I always waiting for buses that never come?
I don't understand this constant misery
I have chains to my feet
that drag me down.
I deserve to drown in that lake.
Don't tell me I need help
It exists in excess when I don't
Flits away when I do.
Never happy
never satisfied
never stable
Always falling apart
I need the push
so I can fall
I need the ram
so I can break
The sleep,
so I never have to wake up
The shot,
so I never have to think again.
Fuck off.
Please. Just let me die.
Just keep living
Let me vanish without a trace
About Me
- Green-seas
- I'm hugely obsessive about grammar and spelling. I compulsively correct people, making me very unpopular. Feminism and gay rights are my pet causes and I love animals. My favourite people in the world are called Choco and Goofy and love me despite my irritating compulsions. Yep, they are dogs. I guess if I were on FRIENDS, I'd be Monica. Only, still fat. Started blogging only because I had nothing to do one afternoon, and now I'm fully stuck with it. LOVE Meg Cabot. She is my hero. She taught me to write what I felt without concerns of it being 'trashy chick-lit'. No, I don't think chick-lit is trashy at all. It is very honest and doesn't waste time being lyrical and flowery. I am not philosophical or hugely smart. Just have spunk, even if I say so my self. :-)
Great, re. your poems are all so awesome! :D
ReplyDeleteI don't know if I can call them poems, re. They're more like rants.
ReplyDeleteWhen on earth are *you* ever updating your blog? :-D
Nice - perfect expression of what we feel when things happen against out will, but we need to get over that smile :)
ReplyDeleteLoved the name of you blog " Lucky losers" :)
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